still running like shit

im still running at a negative roi this month which is also entertaining.....ive been happy with my game though so i dont mind it all that much....on cake i had a glimmer of hope when i went on a 1600 upswing yesterday, but now that has fallen to a 800 upswing. Im still down a ridiculous number of buy ins but hey I guess we can call this late august/september run my second big downswing on the year.....the only positive that has come out of my past month has been being more comfortable 10 tabling - i feel i can 10 table now playing near 100% - i feel 10 tabling isnt really stressful....12 i still find somewhat stressful and taxing on my ability to play them 100%, but hopefully over time that will get easier as welll. I also jumped back in ap rebuys - my ROI in rebuys is in the mid 100s (small sample), so I think its necssary for me to play the 20r/30r as much as possible. With the 30r for example, a 100% ROI would make 120 per 30r played, and if the average tourny lasts 3 hours, thats 40 an hour off that single table......thats so ridiculous how i could do that tournament and 8 or 9 sngs that i have to get back in it.

Getting railed in September

Ive been bending over since the start of this month - Im probably down a couple grand easy on AP and my Cake roll is nearly depleted. Today I went to Sharkscope myself on cake - I was roughly -5600 or so without bonuses....thats fucking sick right there, considering my avg stake is around 55, bringing my swing to 100 buy ins......Im a little concerned about that as I dont think I should be dropping 100 buy ins where I would have an ROI of near 10%, but who knows.....Ive dealt with being a loser over 2k games before, so thats nothing new, but this is sickening.....anyways Im gonna keep grinding it out and hopefully things will turn around....I expected this kind of railing to happen on AP cause of my sick run in July, but this Cake run is really getting to me.

August comes to an end, new change of pace

So August has finally ended - including the 5k diamond Im up roughly 8k on the month :(....I havent gotten the official word about winning it, but after speaking to vip on the 31st, Im pretty damn sure its mine. I was hoping to crack 100k for the year in August but that will have to wait.....Another goal I set, to make 50k this summer happened, which was great....Last year I think I made 30k so Im slowly moving up the ranks.....So for hte month of September I decided to focus more on Cake - the games there are easier, even though im running like complete shit over there.....Also the games on AP (esp 100s) have gotten stacked lately with more regulars, so really my plan is to 6 table on cake and 4-5 table with game selection on AP.......We'll see how it all works out, but I plan on playing a ton of games this month and get cake where it should be....Im owed prob 5k in equity on there :(

Total yearly profit (93,000 est)

Still negative on the month outside all the bonuses

So I think im around -3k on AP for the month and -500 or so on Cake. It really is disturbing that im still running like shit on cake and still in the red after about 1500 games. Ive been through those swings before but this is just brutal. My only saving graces are all the bonuses and this 5k diamond. I figure 4k in rakeback, 2500 in rake races, 1k in credits for cash, 5k diamond, would put me at 11.5k....So really my goal for the rest of hte week is to break even on the month cause profiting outside these bonuses seems far fetched :(

Why do people help others for free?

So I was reading a post on p5's asking questions about sngs and a well known user that knows sng's very well posts a detailed response, with links to ICM programs,etc. Now I know we all want to help people, and its really in our nature, but do we not play poker for profit? I really think alot of these "helpers" are naive about the poker economy and the game itself. The bottom line (especially with SNG's since they have the flattest learning curve) is games are getting harder, and people offering free information are just burning their own money. I also see this alot with MTT'ers, especially the more sucessful ones who think their profits won't be hurt. That's pretty ridiculous to think people cant learn to beat high buy in MTTs - I don't think you need a natural born talent to beat MTT's of that nature, just alot of studying and dedication. I also see alot of people responding to posts to stroke their ego - show the new player how much they know and how good they are. Thats great but really put your wallet before your ego. I have to admit I use to tell people how bad they played, etc - it was immaturity and now I definitely stem away from any negativity about someone's game. So in conclusion I would like everyone to think twice next time they post useful information either in an IM, forum, etc. Sure we love to help people, its in our nature, but if your playing poker for profit your hurting yourself in the longrun.

Back from Vegas, rough start to the month

Vegas turned out to be amazing after a 3 hour plane delay getting there....the hotel was huge - you had the casino and club area, a food court, pool/lounge area and a ton of shops......we also visited caesars, the venetian and some others that were also pretty sick......if you ever go to vegas just walk around and check out all the hotels/sites, its really amazing.....the clubs were sick as well - Pure in caesars was really cool - we got a pussycat doll show while we were there....ghost bar at the palms was great as well going up to the 54th floor and overlooking vegas....I didnt really play much poker down there -I wanted to relax and not do any type of work while on vacation......as far as AP, I missed the 2k diamond last month which really annoys me, but Im also in great shape for this 5k diamond that ends this month. I got a guy "crudebar25" putting up some points, but I think I had him by 25k last month so I should be fine. On AP I think im maybe +1k on the month so far, and about +1500 on Cake(yes im actually up this month on cake outside bonuses). Sad thing is Im still down overall on Sharkscope :(...So my plan for this month is to win the ap rake race, generate maybe 3-4k in rakeback, win this 5k diamond, and hopefully make atleast a couple grand.....we'll see how things go

Biggest month yet playing poker

So I decided to take today off since this week has really been a struggle in terms of getting hours in. I shattered alot of personal records this month - ended up getting in around 2k+ games, averaging 50-55 hours a week, winning 3 tlbs, and clearing over 20k on the month....Funny thing is none of this really came from Cake - Im literally up roughly 2k on the month on cake, with only 500 of that coming from actual profit - Im still a loser on sharkscope with rakeback and rake races putting me in the green. Pretty sad, but atleast running like shit there translated into a good month on AP....heres the breakdown on profit although its not too accurate as my record keeping is non-existent :)

+5k in rakeback
+2500 in rake races
+1k in credits for cash
+500 on cake
+1200 AP MTTs (bluffmag shows me down but i recieved roughly 3 weeks of free entries)
+11k AP SNG's
+2k diamond (hopefully they follow up on their promotions)

+23,200 (if my math is correct)

Year to date (estimated) - 87,000

My goal with the new monitor now is to do no less than 40 hours a week, and roughly 15k/mo....Maybe on Cake I can be a winning player for once and start making money on there, but for now its just AP :(